This morning I got a msg from the Dean asking me to attend the ASEAN meeting tmr,
meaning vacation over and early flight home tmr,
which could be a good thing.
God knows how being occupied by nothing drives me crazy.
OK I did not go to Bali, and Javier Bardem is superupset now for missing me there.
But I do figure sth out these days,
sth that has been bugging me for a long time since my trip to Chiangmai,
speaking of which, Mendy u should be held responsible for bailing on me last minute.
I know u r reading this right now, so if I call u in the middle of the night for nothing,
u owe me to pick up the phone.
Now that I’m leaving tmr early morning,
my sis and I both think that we don’t have enough of the holiday yet.
Seems a lot of fun things haven’t been tried, even our silly two-players-majiong not enough.
Well, that’s normally how u respond for suddenly realizing u r about to lose sth.
Let’s say if tonite is the end of the world,
r u happy with ur status quo?
If u do have feelings for sb,
do u still care about what he believes as a religion,
how much money he has,
what other people would think of ur ill-matched social standing,
what kind of burden he has on his own,
yet is distance still a barrier to overcome??
I guess my thing is I don’t care abt anything at all.
I just do what I want, say what I want, and live as I want.
Why all of a sudden the consequences matter?
Nothing is everlasting.
If not for such delicate and subtle feelings
what’s the point of living this exhausted and lonesome life at all?
I surely know how naïve this sounds.
Sometimes I wish just to be friends with some.
That’s a much simpler way to have someone stick around.
God I invented the friend thing, and I play it so much to deserve the karma.
Knowingly friending someone that has feelings for u is not fair,
but does anything come fair at life? Hell NO!!
And to sustain friendship in the long run there are rules that shouldn’t be crossed.
These r just the terms to abide by.
Yes, it’s selfish to pull the friend thing.
But I have tried the other way around and it’s not working for me.
Heck I need to spill these words out for it’s killing me the right one is not listening.
Finally it’s out and this article is long and boring as crap.
Better just go to my sis b-day party now.